Thursday, December 18, 2008

Torn between being an adult and a child

I believe my title explains it all.

I am now torn between being an adult and a child. Being an adult means a bag of burden on your back. You can never escape from it, because you are THE adult. Being a child would rather mean living in your comfort zone, everything done by your parents. Well, probably not everything, but most of the things. You should know what i mean by this.

Now.

There is a stage in life that is called growing up. How old are we now? 19? 20? 21? Probably around this range. We do consider ourselves young adults. But as we grow older, the responsibility on us increases. Like it or not, this is the way of life, unless we are born with the golden key where everything is well planned for us.

Now, why am i complaining that much about this. Something must have happened to me, agree? As mentioned before, i was hospitalised for two times. Nothing to be proud of, but collecting scars is my new hobby right now. My prized scar is the 6 inch long scar behind my back. At least i got some stories to tell my grandchildren next time.

"Your grandpa is a war hero". By the way, cold war hero between couples.

Sometimes, we tend to take things for granted. One of the thing is insurance. Everyone should have insurance, agree? If something bad happen, at least you are insured. So, with this hospital thing, i have tons of bills to settle. Not to mention some idiotic credit service sending legal letter to me claiming to take legal action against me if i do not pay up my bills. It's $100 only by the way. Sadly, there is no one for me to rely on this time. No more crying out help to mum and dad.

Come to think of it, we have been relying too much on our parents. The thing is, by the time we are separated from our parents, we will only realise the amount of responsibility that our parents have been carrying on our behalf. Easy things like preparing your meal, wash your clothes, clean your room, manage your things well are always done by our parents. We rarely need to lift our finger. Now, being 1000++ km away from my parents, everything is on my own. To live or to die, it all my choice. In the end, it's all about being responsible and being an adult.

I am not saying being a child has no responsibility. Some children has terrible childhood and we should be glad that we have both parents taking care of us. Children under foster care not only suffers from discrimination, they also have to take care of themselves once they past 18 years old. However, i really miss that innocent and sweet looking smile hanging on the baby's face. To them, this world is so beautiful and full of wonder. They have no stress, no responsibility, no problems, no headaches, no bills to solve, no assignments to worry about, no last minuet study for exam, no money problem. In a nut shell, they are king in their own world.



Don't you just miss those days?

Tips of the day: Never stress yourselves out. Instead, take things easy. It's all about your choice. You can choose to do things happily without stress, or complain and whine all the way. It's all up to you. But again, easy said than be done.


Sunday, December 14, 2008

怡保

最近一直在忙着ProDEx和考试,到了现在才有时间把两个星期前的事迹写进blog里.

这次的怡保之旅,是因为要帮我老妹看看金宝的拉曼大学附近的情景.

第一天
时间:晚上七点
地点:怡保
人物:我和ah mok

这次的旅游全是托了ah mok的福,以至于我不必露宿街头.还有一间房间让我住,哇哈哈哈!

Ah mok是我在TARC里一起合作的FYP学生之一,详情会在下一篇ProDEx的文章里透露.

我们从吉隆玻搭了二小时半的巴士才到达怡保,对我而言,怡保是一个还未开发的城镇.
它有着纯扑的乡镇生活,也有着属于新潮的建筑群.在我们到达了之后,就坐者ah mok的车去吃
怡保出名的芽菜鸡.


怡保的芽菜鸡和其他地方不一样,它的豆芽真的是很粗,不像是平时我们所见的芽菜.
它的芽菜鸡味道很特别,比其他地方的还要多些特殊的味道.

第二天

第一天
时间:晚上七点
地点:怡保
人物:我,ah mok,洳如(ah mok女友),湘仪,还有一个忘了....

我们去了怡保的旧街场(old town),去那边尝试了old town的本店的白咖啡
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之后,就往拉曼大学出发...
拉曼大学
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禁止钓鱼的牌
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霹雳洞
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极乐洞
极乐洞是让我最惊讶的旅游地点,在经过了一个洞穴的地道之后,进入的是一个十分美丽的自然公园...
洞穴入口
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自然公园
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豆腐花
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待续.....

Monday, December 8, 2008

佩欣

今天凌晨的一场车祸,她离开我们了.........
事发时,巴士里的乘客还在睡梦中...

有些事情,来得很突然,让人无法接受.
她,是一位独生女,和我同班将近三年,认识了接近五年,一瞬间,在我们眼前消失了......

留下的只是以往的回忆,她和她妈妈离开了....
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只因为交通管制疏忽!

马来西亚,这个国家的交通制度已经亮起红灯了!为什么那些高官扪可以视之而不理!

好想出事的是他们自己!希望老天能收了他们。反正留下他们也只是浪费米粮!

然而,我才发觉,我什么都做不到.........

无助......


偉大母愛令人動容!徐美華死時緊護女兒


http://www.sinchew.com.my/node/93488



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Saturday, December 6, 2008

Updates

Yo folks, how's everyone doing?

Just to clear all the confusion, i am still alive, despite the fact that i am typing this in a hospital.

So..

The most common question: what had happened?

Long story short, i took an x-ray, went for my follow-up. After reviewing my x-ray, there i am, admitted again. Same old ward. Same old nurses. Different bed tho, this time i got the bed opposite the previous one.

"Welcome back!"

That was the first thing i heard upon arriving at the ward.

Alright, moving on, second question.. Why it happened?

Well, statistically, 30% of young, tall, slim, asian male are expected to have pneumothorax. Within the 30% unlucky one, 10% of them have will developed a second pneumothorax. I was always known to be lucky, or so i have heard. Well, i think it is pretty clear in my case. I-am-lucky! Who else could achieve such feat?

Last but not least, how are you now?

Hmm, pretty tough question. I wouldn't say i am feeling bad as my operation was a week ago and i am now up and moving. Friends are there for me, as well as my dad. But i wouldn't say i am good either. It has been 2 weeks here and this is a test of my patience, as well as a test of my faith probably?

So, what do you think?

Btw, i am torn between htc touch pro and ipod touch. I am planning to get either one for myself. First to reward myself for my result (although my result is not that good, got a credit, but nevertheless i think i had done what i can in my condition). Second my old phone is wearing off, dying of old age soon.

Soooo.. which one will you choose? Advice and critics are welcomed.

And to those who have cared for me, thank you!

p/s: htc touch pro is the recently released pda phone, code name htc raphael, combining both high end tech and beauty. A killer indeed: when work meet beauty. Price at rm3000, i think it's quite expensive. Ipod touch is gaining popularity among youngsters due to its smooth and simple interface and the ever booming apps for it. Priced at AUD329 for 8gb, it is damn tempting. Exchange rate now is 1:2.4, not a bad deal. Both can be my organiser and workstation and both are good. Headache right?